underqualified/overqualified

just continuing to feel very overwhelmed, the heart palpitations and anxiety continue, the elephant isn't just in the room, he is sitting on my chest, squishing me so i can't breathe. i have been thinking about why i didn't feel great joy at accomplishing my ren thank-yous and brazil letter and i think it is because i feel incredibly unworthy to continue on this journey, unprepared to serve, possibly even incapable of coping much more than one day at a day. i was unsure of what i could bring to brazil, how could i serve these women and children. . .yesterday at one of our monthly team meetings, i learned that the infant mortality rate in brazil is 29.6%. that is every 1 in 3 babies die! why? i am sickeningly overqualified suddenly. i pray that God enables me to serve Him in a big way, in a way that I cannot even comprehend. i am compelled to learn more about this statistic. please pray that God will reveal Himself to me as to how I can serve and altho' i know that the whys are probably not answerable till heaven help me to grow in peace, patience and understanding.